Forgiveness absolutely depends on your ability to recognize and believe that NOTHING HAPPENED.
And I give you this profound and inspiring quote re forgiveness:
"It does not pardon sins and make them real. It sees there was no sin. And in that view are all your sins forgiven."
So simple yet so fucking profound.
It means ALL sins are not real! It means that in order to "accept the atonement", you HAVE to get your mind to where it is convinced that:
a) sin is not real, EVER, and
b) because of that, NOTHING has really ever happened.
This MUST also mean that the entire world in which "stuff happens" CANNOT BE HAPPENING. It cannot be real.
Sin is the idea that stuff is really happening. This world is the illusion that stuff is really happening. IT IS NOT!
So the only way that you can forgive yourself "all the way", is by absolutely and without exception accepting these facts:
1) The world is not reality, it is entirely 100% illusion
2) You have not ever done anything here
3) You cannot be sinful because sin is not reality
4) There is no real sin
5) Therefore, in reality, in truth, NOTHING HAS HAPPENED.
Forgiveness=Atonement=World is not real=There is no sin!