Surrounding me is all the life that God created in His Love. It calls to me in every heartbeat and in every breath; in every action and in every thought. Peace fills my heart, and floods my body with the purpose of forgiveness. Now my mind is healed, and all I need to save the world is given me. Each heartbeat brings me peace; each breath infuses me with strength. I am a messenger of God, directed by His Voice, sustained by Him in love, and held forever quiet and at peace within His loving arms. Each heartbeat calls His Name, and every one is answered by His Voice, assuring me I am at home in Him.
"Let me attend Your Answer, not my own. Father, my heart is beating in the peace the Heart of Love created. It is there and only there that I can be at home."
If a person is sick, God is a murderer.
If the sickness exists, if it has reality, it has been created, then it must have been created by God.
Only what God creates is real, or exists, or has been created.
There is nothing that exists other than what God has created.
There is no reality other than what is a part of God.
Only what God wills really exists or happens.
If a person is sick, God must have willed it to happen.
If a person is sick, God must have created the sickness.
If a person is sick, God has produces a real sickness, has given it to the person, and is making them sick.
But if God were to have to created a real sickness, then God has given sickness to the person on purpose, by his will.
If God wills that people be sick, then God is a vicious murderous bastard.
Only a cruel, unloving and unkind God could give a sickness to someone. To make them sick on purpose, to guarantee their suffering.
Such a God would have to be sick himself, hateful, vengeful, murderous, torturous, evil, twisted, malicious and an attacker.
God himself must have attacked the person cruelly and inflicted a curse of hell upon them, if they are really sick.
So the fact is, if that sickness is real, if it has been created, if it is God’s will, and if it really exists, then God is a cruel vicious hateful creator. A condemner and a killer.
The situation then is, you have to decide, whether or not God is like this. Whether God could create real sickness and give it to people.
Is God the kind of God that could create and will and curse someone with suffering?
Does God want them dead?
Is God punishing them?
Is God really cruel, vicious, hateful, and an attacker?
Has got personally inflicted suffering on someone and given them a sickness that he believes they deserve?
If God hasn’t, and if God is loving, and if God is not an attacker, and if God does not will that someone have a sickness, then God is NOT the cause of the sickness.
If God did not cause the sickness, then the sickness has not been created.
If it is not created, it is not a part of God’s creation, and nothing but God’s creations exist.
If the sickness is not created by God, it cannot exist. Nor can it cause or create anything.
If the sickness is not a part of God’s will, then it has not been willed at all.
If the sickness is not given to the person by God, the person has not inherited it from God, and they do not have it. No-one has anything other than what they have inherited from God.
If the sickness does not share God’s reality, then the sickness does not have any reality.
If the sickness has no reality, it does not really exist at all. It cannot be there, it has no life, it has no will, it has no power.
Either, God is loving and does not will that there be sickness, or God is hateful and has caused all the sickness everywhere.
But if God is loving, then not only has God not created any sickness, God actively WILLS that you NOT be sick.
“God does not will that you suffer.”
“God’s will for you is perfect happiness.”
A loving God wills that you be healed, and whole, and healthy, and happy.
A loving God wants you to have no sickness at all.
A loving God would take your sickness away in a heartbeat, knowing it is not there.
A loving God can only love you, sustain you, create you to live forever, and never attack you.
In fact a loving God can only protect you, keep you safe, maintain your perfection, and give you immortality.
If God is loving, you cannot be sick.
If God is loving, that sickness cannot exist, and must be a lie.
“God did not create that sickness, and therefore it does not exist.”
Whatever that sickness appears to be, it cannot be a real sickness.
Whatever that sickness appears to be, it does not really exist at all.
That sickness has not been created.
That sickness has not been caused.
That sickness is not there.
There is no sickness.
There never was a sickness.
That person was never sick. They never can be sick. And they never will be sick.
The sickness must be a lie, it must be false, and it cannot be real.
The sickness is not true.
The sickness must not be anything. The sickness is nothing.
Either the sickness is real and exists and is the will of God, or there is no sickness and the person is not sick and God wills their immortality.
That person is not sick now and never was.
Whatever the sickness appears to be, it is not a part of that person, or a part of anything real.
The sickness is a gone.
There is no real sickness and there never will be, otherwise God would have to be sick and share his sickness.
God is not sick.
Therefore, that person cannot be sick.
That sickness is not there. There is no sickness. There is no death.
That person must be whole, they must still be as God created them, they cannot suffer, and they cannot ever be sick. Otherwise God would be death.
There never was a real sickness.
God never created real sickness.
Real sickness does not exist.
You are not sick. I am not sick. God is not sick.
God does not will that you be sick.
God wills that you be healed and whole and healthy.
Sickness is impossible.
It is impossible for you to be sick or to die.
God wills that you live forever.
God has already willed that you live forever.
God’s will cannot be undone. God’s will is done already. So you must be healed already.
You are already permanently whole and perfect.
There is no sickness in you.
God knows you are already whole and healed and holy.
Only love is real. Only health is real. Only wholeness is real.
We are the whole of healthy holiness together.
God has guaranteed your health and your permanence.
You will never die. There is only life. You will live forever.
A fear years ago, I was at an ACIM retreat and we were doing a breathing exercise. I became filled up with some kind of energy, which lifted my "vibration" very high. My mind started to see past the physical and reach out and started to see God BEYOND the veil. In that moment I would've left the entire world behind to be with Him.
I'll skip some details but after that, I was seeing with true perception. The amount of awareness and wakefulness I had was off the charts. Everywhere I looked, still seeing physical objects with my eyes, I saw God. God was in everything I saw and God was in my mind. My mind had expanded in some way, moving up the hologram, to where my ego self seemed dissipated and diffused into the back of my awareness, as though I had no center. My mind somehow pulled back away from the world and I began to feel like I was melting into the background, one with it. I felt like I was becoming Christ.
My awareness for some days after, entailed the ability to see a profound gentleness in everything. Everywhere I looked there was unconditional love, in all things. This love seemed so whole and complete, no matter where I looked, that I felt I had no need to look anywhere else to go find anything. I saw it in a chair leg. In a water bottle. In the shadows on a wall.
People were still going about their business doing exactly everything in the same egoic way as before - nothing changed there, because the body's eyes can ONLY see the physical form of things. But at the same time, there was awareness of a love and presence. I was aware of something that it seemed no-one knew was there, even though it seemed obvious. I became so soft. God was so gentle, so soft and joyous. And he was very, very intimate, which was shocking at first because I had previously always put God far away in the sky and here he was well under my skin.
I also became aware of the higher levels of the hologram, an experience of unity, in which the whole was in each part. All of God was in each object I saw. I therefore recognized for the first time in experience, that even though physical objects seemed to assert that "nothing is the same anywhere" or "there is nothing that is whole" or "the whole is not in any of the parts", here in my awareness I could still see this forms and yet, simultaneously, my mind was aware that a single consistent unified whole was present in all parts, fully, transcending their limitations and differences. This taught me the way in which physical matter is a lie, a deception designed to shut out awareness of God's nature.
I was in an altered state for a couple of weeks. I was very ungrounded. I could barely do tasks because my mind was quite expanded and out of body. Yet each time I did something "grounding", this energy that was in me started to funnel down, and this produced immense joy. Joy would beam out of my face toward others as I started at them very directly, something I had shy'd away from before, recognizing I had no needs, no lack, and that there was only outward extension. Nothing could "come in" to me from the outside. I felt so safe and protected and free from needs. I didn't even want to eat food, it felt so alien.
Gradually as I grounded back into my body my expanded awareness narrowed down, became more focused into and through the body, and I became more immersed in the physical body again. This was like receiving some kind of brain damage. My awareness diminished greatly and it felt like being greatly subdued and suppressed, shut down and locked inside a prison suit. This also stripped away most of the intense wakefulness that I had, which felt like "leaving God", which was VERY upsetting.
This made it impossible for me to have God in my mind, and thus I stopped seeing God outside of me in all things. It seemed God left. I kept trying to find God outside of me because I thought that He was out there, having seen Him there, but I couldn't find Him because I was no longer aware of Him WITHIN my mind. And for weeks this was depressing and infuriating, although gradually I adjusted and was reassured by a few momentary glimpses that God was still with me. Returning to my body felt like a huge isolation. As my eye sight returned to looking out solely through the body's eyes, it was like building a brick wall "behind" me such that I could no longer have any sense of what was there. The body cut me off from awareness of God, and so I got to see first hand just how limiting bodies are.
What I later came to realize was this was an experience of true perception. A state of seeing a forgiven world. It was as though layer upon layer of thick "judgement" had been scraped off the surface of the world revealing an extremely gently held picture of something very lovable. And yet at the same time, the physicality was the same. The appearance physically to my eyes was the same. It was what I saw IN it, in SPITE of the physicality, that I longed to reconnect with.
This is why, for me personally, I know that this physical world is not real. I know how much the body lies. I know how the body's sense are massively limiting. I know how matter lies to try to obscure the holographic nature of God and his omnipresence. I've seen it and experienced the transition back and forth. God gave me a glimpse of awakening and it was the most profoundly directly educational experience of my entire life.
This is why I know first hand that there is something very much beyond this world, a reality which is completely obscured by forms and trapped by bodies. This world is not my home. I have grieved for the "loss of God" and gradually over time use this as incentive, a taste of what's to come, to find my way back to God again.
The attraction to Him was SO STRONG that I would've leapt into His arms in an instant without so much as a consideration for anything else in all the world. We have protected ourselves from remembering just how appealing God is, and why NOTHING else means anything even remotely close to Him. We only block awareness in order to hide this extreme attraction. Otherwise we would awaken in a heartbeat.