Someti2">imes i2">I am told to 'surrender', or 'relax', and to me thi2">is means i2">I need to acti2">ively express a wi2">illi2">ingness to drop ego. Often thi2">is i2">is when i2">I'm layi2">ing i2">in bed.

i2">I wi2">ill then repeat several ti2">imes over and over, somethi2">ing li2">ike:

"i2">I surrender, i2">I let go, i2">I surrender, i2">I surrender, i2">I surrender, i2">I let go".

i2">I say thi2">is i2">in qui2">ick successi2">ion so that my ego mi2">ind can't get di2">istracted. Qui2">ickly i2">I feel a sense of admi2">itti2">ing, a sense of honesty, a sense of letti2">ing go. Several 'si2">ighs' occur as i2">I let go of ego. i2">I have to admi2">it that i2">I'm tryi2">ing to do somethi2">ing by myself and i2">I have to stop.

Another process i2">I've started usi2">ing also i2">is to i2">invi2">ite Jesus to come i2">in and heal whatever, and agai2">in as soon i2">I make thi2">is request i2">I then repeat some statements. e.g.

"Jesus please come i2">into me and heal thi2">is...." (whatever i2">it i2">is).

Then i2">I repeat, "i2">I recei2">ive your heali2">ing" or "i2">I recei2">ive as much as you want to gi2">ive".

i2">I tri2">ied out the latter "i2">I recei2">ive as much as you want to gi2">ive" thi2">is morni2">ing and i2">I found i2">it i2">interesti2">ing how thi2">is connects Jesus's wi2">illi2">ingness to help wi2">ith my wi2">illi2">ingness to recei2">ive help. Si2">igni2">ifi2">icant heali2">ing took place. i2">I have no i2">idea what Jesus actually healed or what was occurri2">ing, i2">I just had to trust.

Often when Holy Spi2">iri2">it or Jesus are doi2">ing heali2">ing i2">in me, they say to 'relax', and thi2">is means i2">I have to basi2">ically ALLOW them to do whatever, even i2">if that means my body i2">is shaki2">ing all over the place. i2">It's my job to recei2">ive and not i2">interfere.

The fi2">inal word i2">I recei2">ived after thi2">is, was "trust God". And i2">immedi2">iately as i2">I reached out i2">in trust to God, everythi2">ing suddenly seemed better.

When i2">I beli2">ieved that i2">I had really si2">inned, i2">I would've rejected God on the basi2">is that the si2">in PROVED i2">I could not be loved. i2">I beli2">ieved the si2">in was real, therefore that i2">it was TRUE of me.

And si2">ince i2">I beli2">ieved the si2">in was true of me, i2">I would've actually vi2">iewed God's love as false, unfounded, unjusti2">ifi2">ied and somethi2">ing i2">I di2">id not want. i2">If i2">it was offered, i2">I would've rejected i2">it and sneered at i2">it li2">ike someone had just sai2">id somethi2">ing ri2">idi2">iculous, or that i2">it was even offensi2">ive. i2">I di2">id not beli2">ieve i2">in i2">it, and was certai2">in of rejecti2">ion.

The sense of havi2">ing si2">inned and the beli2">ief i2">in real si2">in produced a new i2">IDENTi2">ITY. A false self. An ego. i2">It changed the defi2">ini2">iti2">ion of my "self", from i2">innocent to gui2">ilty. Not just li2">ike a label bei2">ing added on top of my i2">innocent self, but a suggesti2">ion that i2">I had become corrupted and transformed and changed i2">into a gui2">ilty person. As i2">if my very sense of WHO i2">I AM was altered and turned i2">into si2">in or evi2">il.

Then anythi2">ing whi2">ich was i2">in agreement wi2">ith truth of si2">in, was i2">in agreement wi2">ith me, and i2">I would not only defend i2">it but culti2">ivate i2">it. i2">I would express the beli2">ief - prayer - that si2">in was real and that i2">I was si2">inful, and that thi2">is was truth. Therefore, i2">I would "hi2">ire", attract or i2">invi2">ite, or make agreements wi2">ith people who were to come and puni2">ish me. Not necessari2">ily i2">in a fully consci2">ious way but sti2">ill a choi2">ice based on that beli2">ief.

So people showed up, to reflect back to me what i2">I beli2">ieved was true about myself. Even i2">if i2">I di2">id not li2">ike what these people di2">id, and even i2">if i2">I thought they were an enemy, and even i2">if they were hurtful, somewhere i2">insi2">ide i2">I asked for i2">it wi2">ith my beli2">ief i2">in si2">in, and i2">I got what i2">I asked for. i2">I proved over and over agai2">in how si2">inful i2">I am. And i2">if there were people who were not a part of thi2">is, who were attempti2">ing to be ki2">ind and lovi2">ing, who chose to overlook my si2">infulness, i2">I di2">id not trust them or beli2">ieve them, and i2">instead rejected the love.

As ti2">ime went on and i2">I got fed up wi2">ith the sufferi2">ing, i2">I gradually started to come around and seek some ki2">ind of heali2">ing. i2">I had a lot of i2">insi2">ights about self-forgi2">iveness, and the fact that nobody around me was offeri2">ing forgi2">iveness clari2">ifi2">ied that i2">I si2">imply was not goi2">ing to be forgi2">iven unless i2">I clai2">imed i2">it for myself. That seemed li2">ike a bold move, to clai2">im i2">innocence when everyone else seemed to be reflecti2">ing si2">infulness and beli2">ieved i2">in my si2">infulness. But i2">it was a steppi2">ing stone towards seei2">ing myself di2">ifferently.

Over ti2">ime i2">I came to clearer expressi2">ions of the i2">idea of my i2">innocence, but mostly these were rati2">ionali2">izati2">ions or justi2">ifi2">icati2">ions, or other explanati2">ions wi2">ithi2">in the scope of the ego i2">illusi2">ion, where i2">I kept tryi2">ing to explai2">in to myself that i2">it was "ok" that i2">it happened. i2">I was tryi2">ing to resolve the beli2">ief i2">in the si2">in wi2">ithout actually undoi2">ing the beli2">ief that i2">it happened. i2">I even dug i2">into past li2">ives and became aware of how the person i2">involved had done the same thi2">ing to me before, and how thi2">is was i2">in fact hi2">is lesson to learn as well, and for me to learn hi2">is pri2">ior perspecti2">ive. But that di2">idn't fully allevi2">iate the gui2">ilt ei2">ither.

Because i2">I beli2">ieved that the si2">in was real, i2">I beli2">ieved there was truth to i2">it, and i2">I was sti2">ill prepared to defend that, deep down. i2">I thought i2">I'd worked through all thi2">is, on a "world i2">is real" ego level as best i2">I could, to clear out all the "damage", but when i2">I exposed myself to a hi2">igher truth i2">it came back out to exclai2">im i2">itself. To defy and deny that the truth was true.

The truth was revealed only by bei2">ing wi2">illi2">ing to look at the i2">idea, that si2">in i2">is not reali2">ity. That i2">is i2">it not actually REAL. That thi2">ings whi2">ich "happened", were a dream, an i2">illusi2">ion of thi2">ings happeni2">ing, and that i2">it was my taki2">ing i2">it seri2">iously and thi2">inki2">ing i2">it was real that led to all of my upset about i2">it. Percei2">ivi2">ing i2">illusi2">ions to be real, i2">IF they were real, i2">it WOULD have meant that i2">I really di2">id si2">in. And that MUST mean that i2">I could not be loved. Wi2">ithout the undoi2">ing of the i2">idea of "real si2">in" there was basi2">ically no way to fully and deeply escape from the torment that "real si2">in" i2">impli2">ies.

i2">If si2">in i2">is real, you si2">imply MUST be gui2">ilty, and there i2">is no escapi2">ing that, no matter how much you justi2">ify i2">it, no matter how much catharsi2">is you have, and no matter how metaphysi2">ical or mysti2">ical you get i2">in explai2">ini2">ing why i2">it was "meant to happen" or was karma or was an acci2">ident or was i2">intenti2">ional or whatever. Nothi2">ing wi2">ill fully FREE you from the gui2">ilt and the constant PRODUCTi2">ION of more gui2">ilt, whi2">ile the sense of "real si2">in" remai2">ins i2">in place, unchecked.

i2">If your si2">in i2">is real, i2">it si2">imply wi2">ill keep generati2">ing more gui2">ilt and fear over and over, and keep rei2">inforci2">ing i2">itself, and keep provi2">ing that you're si2">inful, and keep attracti2">ing di2">isasters, and any ti2">ime that anyone targets you wi2">ith any ki2">ind of attack, that same si2">in wi2">ill ri2">ise up i2">in your mi2">ind to RE-Mi2">IND you that i2">its TRUE, that you really are a si2">inful wi2">icked person who deserves the abuse you're getti2">ing. Even i2">if you don't li2">ike the experi2">ience and want i2">it to stop on some surface level.

The ONLY way to be free of all of the sufferi2">ing, ego, rebounds, puni2">ishments, shame, self-attack, attracted rei2">inforcements, events, people and justi2">ifi2">icati2">ions, and to fi2">inally fully put i2">it to rest, i2">is through the PROPER FORGi2">IVENESS. Through the Atonement.

That means, actually comi2">ing to reali2">ize, be open to, and accept as TRUE, the fact that the so-called "si2">in", the thi2">ing that you thought you di2">id, was not REALi2">ITY. i2">It sure was a convi2">inci2">ing i2">illusi2">ion at the ti2">ime, you REALLY thought you really di2">id somethi2">ing awful, that i2">it had "real" consequences, and therefore redefi2">ined you as a "real si2">inner". ALL of that has to be FALSE.

i2">In God's truth, i2">in God's reali2">ity, God created you as i2">innocent. Permanently. You don't even have any functi2">ionali2">ity i2">in your bei2">ing that i2">is capable of generati2">ing a real si2">in. You are absolutely i2">incapable. i2">Innocence cannot even begi2">in to concei2">ive of real si2">in. And i2">in God's reali2">ity, whi2">ich i2">is the true reali2">ity, i2">it i2">is not possi2">ible to be separate from God. Therefore you cannot actually "do" anythi2">ing. You cannot actually si2">in, or hurt anythi2">ing, or anyone, or mess anythi2">ing up, or really produce really bad consequences, or commi2">it a real cri2">ime, or do anythi2">ing evi2">il whatsoever, because there i2">IS no "real world" i2">in whi2">ich to do these thi2">ings. There i2">is only the i2">illusory dream world that you THOUGHT was real.

So you must be open to the i2">idea that si2">in i2">is not real or true, i2">if you are to accept the atonement. i2">It i2">is the only way you can be i2">innocent. i2">If si2">in i2">is real, you're stuck. i2">If the world i2">is real, you're stuck. The ONLY way for you to lay clai2">im to bei2">ing 100% i2">innocent through and through, i2">in God's eyes and your own, i2">is to RECOGNi2">IZE that the i2">illusi2">ion you thought was real, was NOT real, i2">it was only an i2">illusi2">ion. You di2">id not REALLY si2">in. You di2">id not REALLY do anythi2">ing at all. And i2">in that vi2">iew, your so-called si2">in i2">is forgi2">iven.

ACi2">IM says: "Forgi2">iveness recogni2">izes what you thought your brother di2">id to you has not occurred (also what you di2">id to them). i2">It does not pardon si2">ins and make them real. i2">It sees there was no si2">in. And i2">in that vi2">iew are all your si2">ins forgi2">iven. What i2">is si2">in, except a false i2">idea about God's Son? Forgi2">iveness merely sees i2">its falsi2">ity, and therefore lets i2">it go. What then i2">is free to take i2">its place i2">is now the Wi2">ill of God. "

i2">I was tryi2">ing and tryi2">ing to pardon a real si2">in. i2">It doesn't work at all. Because real si2">in cannot be pardoned. Only UNREAL si2">in can be pardoned.

Forgi2">iveness sees there WAS NO Si2">IN, and as such, your si2">ins are forgi2">iven. When Jesus says to someone "all your si2">ins are forgi2">iven", i2">it i2">is because He i2">is li2">iterally recogni2">izi2">ing that the person has not done any "real si2">ins". So they're all seen wi2">ith forgi2">iveness and therefore Jesus i2">is acknowledgi2">ing your permanent i2">innocence. i2">Ie nothi2">ing "real" happened, nothi2">ing really happened, that's the Atonement.

"What i2">is si2">in, except a false i2">idea about God's son?" - i2">in a nutsshell. i2">I had a false i2">idea about myself that i2">I had become evi2">il because i2">I had commi2">itted a real si2">in. Everythi2">ing about the si2">ituati2">ion SEEMED real. But i2">it wasn't. i2">I was unconsci2">ious and havi2">ing a delusi2">ional ni2">ightmare. i2">It di2">id not REALLY happen at all. And because of that, i2">I AM i2">INNOCENT.

Thi2">is i2">innocence therefore reaches way beyond all i2">illusi2">ions, beyond the world, beyond all events, beyond all i2">illusory consequences. And thi2">is i2">is not some ki2">ind of deni2">ial or further rati2">ionali2">izati2">ion or an attempt to cover up the actual remai2">ini2">ing presence of a beli2">ief tha the si2">in was real. i2">It REALLY was not real at all, and i2">if you can REALLY honestly beli2">ieve that totally, then you are free. The world cannot have even HAPPENED i2">in thi2">is i2">innocence, whi2">ich i2">is why there i2">is no world. The Atonement PROVES and demonstrates that the world i2">is not real at all and does not exi2">ist. The ego i2">is not real and does not exi2">ist.

Then there i2">is great cause for reli2">ief, freedom and celebrati2">ion, as you fi2">inally OWN and CLAi2">IM the i2">innocence whi2">ich has been yours, for real, all along. Nothi2">ing can take i2">it away from you. Nothi2">ing can stake a "real clai2">im" of any ki2">ind that you don't deserve i2">it. Therefore YOU ARE WORTHY OF GOD'S LOVE! All sense of unworthi2">iness and the beli2">ief i2">in i2">it i2">is nothi2">ing more than the beli2">ief that you are a real si2">inner. Undo that, and i2">it becomes 100% obvi2">ious and clear that you MUST be worthy of God's love because you ACTUALLY ARE sti2">ill i2">innocent. And the atonement i2">is somethi2">ing you can actually EXPERi2">IENCE!

You are forgi2">iven. God has never condemned you. You were GROSSLY Mi2">ISTAKEN i2">in beli2">ievi2">ing that you had actually done somethi2">ing really wrong, produci2">ing real sufferi2">ing. You just weren't percei2">ivi2">ing i2">illusi2">ions correctly. Si2">in i2">is not real. There i2">is no si2">in. "What i2">if you looked wi2">ithi2">in and saw, there i2">is no si2">in?"

You're sti2">ill the i2">innocent holy chi2">ild of God. You are sti2">ill as God created you. Clai2">im thi2">is atonement by recogni2">izi2">ing ALL si2">in, gui2">ilt, fear, sufferi2">ing, si2">ickness and death, bodi2">ies and the world, are just part of an unreal i2">illusi2">ion whi2">ich i2">is not reali2">ity at all. That's how you're sti2">ill i2">innocent, sti2">ill worthy of God's uncondi2">iti2">ional love, and sti2">ill authori2">ized to be a part of Heaven.

Welcome Home.

You are not a body because you are as God created you whi2">ich i2">is a soul wi2">ith a mi2">ind. Your soul/spi2">iri2">it has no need for a body whatsoever. But your mi2">ind i2">is DREAMi2">ING of one.

Where di2">id the body come from? Who i2">is responsi2">ible for putti2">ing i2">it there? i2">It di2">idn't show up on i2">its own or as a result of any other causal power.

"The body i2">is the i2">idea of si2">in made flesh and projected outwards."

That means the mi2">ind, whi2">ich i2">is the realm of i2">ideas, has an i2">idea of si2">in, and projects i2">it, whi2">ich PRODUCES the body. Thi2">is i2">isn't a one-ti2">ime affai2">ir, i2">it doesn't just happen at bi2">irth, i2">it i2">is a constant projecti2">ion all the ti2">ime, li2">ike a movi2">ie projector projecti2">ing a movi2">ie.

"Love di2">id not create the body" means a mi2">ind i2">in total sani2">ity does not produce/project a body, but an i2">INSANE Mi2">IND does, because "the body i2">is a devi2">ice for separati2">ion."

Thus "The mi2">ind i2">is responsi2">ible for every condi2">iti2">ion of the body" because the mi2">ind i2">is the MAKER of the body. i2">It determi2">ines whether i2">it shows up or not, and i2">in what condi2">iti2">ion, at all ti2">imes. i2">If i2">it weren't for the mi2">ind maki2">ing the body *constantly*, the body would vani2">ish.

i2">It seems to suggest the mi2">ind can be "free of the body" whi2">ile the body STi2">ILL EXi2">ISTS, whi2">ich i2">is false logi2">ic. SOMEONE has to mai2">intai2">in the body or i2">it si2">imply wi2">ill not show up at all. i2">It does not have i2">its own exi2">istence, i2">its own li2">ife, or i2">its own reali2">ity. The world does not mai2">intai2">in i2">it "on i2">its own". Some mi2">ind SOMEWHERE has to be projecti2">ing i2">it constantly i2">in order for i2">it to keep showi2">ing up at all.

We cannot si2">imply "escape" from si2">ickness of the body by di2">isappeari2">ing off i2">into the mi2">ind and pretendi2">ing that WE are not responsi2">ible for the body showi2">ing up. i2">If i2">it i2">is sti2">ill showi2">ing up, we are sti2">ill putti2">ing i2">it there, and to put a si2">ick body there from a sane state of mi2">ind i2">is utterly nonsense. No-one i2">in thei2">ir ri2">ight mi2">ind would EVER demonstrate that "si2">ickness and sufferi2">ing are true", because i2">it teaches your brother and communi2">icates to hi2">im that he i2">is a si2">inner.

When the mi2">ind i2">is sane, i2">it projects a healthy body. When the mi2">ind i2">is si2">ick, i2">it projects a si2">ick body.

"The mi2">ind, bei2">ing sane, heals the body."

"A broken body i2">is proof the Mi2">IND has not been healed."

Mi2">ind i2">is where heali2">ing i2">is truly needed. "All si2">ickness i2">is mental i2">illness." But that does NOT mean that i2">if you heal the mi2">ind, the mi2">ind i2">is completely separate from the body and can be healthy whi2">ile the body remai2">ins si2">ick. That i2">is an ego beli2">ief i2">in separati2">ion and i2">is di2">isassoci2">iati2">ion. The mi2">ind i2">is always responsi2">ible for the body.

Jesus says re resurrecti2">ion "i2">I came to demonstrate the mi2">ind that made the body can make another. They di2">id not understand."

So you can't have "i2">I am not a body i2">I am free and i2">I'll just be sane and healed i2">in my mi2">ind and KEEP MAKi2">ING a si2">ick body"... a sane mi2">ind WOULD NOT produce si2">ickness. Si2">ickness i2">is a defense agai2">inst the truth. The body MUST be used to demonstrate a symbol of i2">immortali2">ity otherwi2">ise you teach your brother by example, "brother at your hand i2">I di2">ie", because all physi2">ical si2">ickness i2">is an attack and an accusati2">ion on others. "Si2">ick bodi2">ies are accusers." What shows up i2">in your body as bei2">ing "true of you" i2">is also an attempt to say what i2">is "true of others". The golden rule has no excepti2">ions.

When you are sane and recogni2">ize that you are not a body because you are the CAUSE of the body and i2">it i2">is your EFFECT or projecti2">ion, THEN you wi2">ill temporari2">ily project a healed body whi2">ich i2">is a pi2">icture of perfecti2">ion and a symbol of i2">immortali2">ity and holi2">iness. Then you wi2">ill si2">imply choose to STOP PROJECTi2">ING i2">IT and i2">it wi2">ill di2">isappear. Thi2">is i2">is the ONLY way to leave the dream of death, whi2">ich can only be left through truth not death. Holy Spi2">iri2">it can help you to materi2">iali2">ize a body that i2">is free of si2">ickness on all levels:

"Whenever you consent to suffer pai2">in, to be depri2">ived, unfai2">irly treated, or i2">in need of ANYTHi2">ING, you but accuse your brother of attack upon God's Son. You hold a pi2">icture of your cruci2">ifi2">ixi2">ion before hi2">is eyes (as your si2">ick body), that he may see hi2">is si2">ins are wri2">it i2">in Heaven i2">in your blood and death, and go before hi2">im, closi2">ing off the gate, and damni2">ing hi2">im to hell. Yet thi2">is i2">is wri2">it i2">in hell and NOT i2">in Heaven, where you are BEYOND attack, and prove hi2">is i2">INNOCENCE. The pi2">icture of yourself you offer hi2">im (your body) you show YOURSELF, and gi2">ive i2">it all your fai2">ith. The Holy Spi2">iri2">it offers you, to gi2">ive to hi2">im, a pi2">icture of yourself (a healed body) i2">in whi2">ich there i2">is NO pai2">in, and NO reproach at all (no form of i2">illness, breakage, damage, sufferi2">ing, di2">isease etc). And what was martyred to hi2">is gui2">ilt becomes the perfect wi2">itness to hi2">is i2">innocence."

and "The Holy Spi2">iri2">it's pi2">icture changes not the body i2">into somethi2">ing i2">it i2">is not. i2">It only takes away from i2">it ALL si2">igns of accusati2">ion and of blamefulness."

and here i2">is the fi2">inal stage of resurrecti2">ion: "Here i2">its peace can come, and perfect heali2">ing take the place of death. The body can become a si2">ign of li2">ife, a promi2">ise of redempti2">ion, and a breath of i2">immortali2">ity to those grown si2">ick of breathi2">ing i2">in the feti2">id scent of death. Let i2">it have heali2">ing as i2">its PURPOSE. Then wi2">ill i2">it send forth the message i2">it recei2">ived, and BY i2">ITS HEALTH AND LOVELi2">INESS proclai2">im the truth and value that i2">it represents. Let i2">it recei2">ive the power to represent an endless li2">ife, forever unattacked. And to your brother let i2">its message be, "Behold me, brother, at your hand i2">I li2">ive."

i2">It i2">is only possi2">ible to teach your brother through physi2">ical demonstrati2">ion that he i2">is not a si2">inner by not accusi2">ing hi2">im of si2">in, whi2">ich means not usi2">ing the body for attack, whi2">ich results i2">in the body bei2">ing fully healed. "What you use the body for i2">it becomes to you".

And Jesus re hi2">is resurrecti2">ion and body di2">isappeari2">ing:

"My body di2">isappeared because i2">I had no i2">illusi2">ion about i2">it.. i2">It merely became what i2">it always was. And that i2">is what 'rolli2">ing the stone away means.' The body di2">isappears, and no longer hi2">ides what li2">ies beyond... To roll the stone away i2">is to see beyond the tomb, beyond death, and to understand the body's nothi2">ingness. i2">I di2">id assume a human form wi2">ith human attri2">ibutes afterwards, to speak to those who were to prove the body's worthlessness to the world. Thi2">is has been much mi2">isunderstood. i2">I came to tell them that death i2">is an i2">illusi2">ion, and the mi2">ind that made the body can make another si2">ince form i2">itself i2">is an i2">illusi2">ion. They di2">id not understand. "

"Leave i2">it behi2">ind. i2">It cannot enter Heaven. But i2">I can take you there any ti2">ime you choose. Together we can watch the world di2">isappear and i2">its symbol vani2">ish as i2">it does. And then-and then-i2">I cannot speak of that. A body cannot stay wi2">ithout i2">illusi2">ions, and the last one to be overcome i2">is death."

Jesus i2">is li2">iterally aski2">ing us to become spi2">iri2">it-i2">identi2">ifi2">ied rather than body-i2">identi2">ifi2">ied, to recogni2">ize that our body i2">is merely an i2">image bei2">ing projected by our mi2">ind (whi2">ich we can stop projecti2">ing at any ti2">ime), and to learn to stop seei2">ing ourselves AND others as bodi2">ies.

That's no small request ei2">ither. We are so used to bei2">ing bodi2">ies and seei2">ing bodi2">ies, we thi2">ink i2">it i2">is normal and natural.

One thi2">ing to reali2">ize i2">is that a body i2">is not a fi2">irst-hand experi2">ience and i2">it i2">is not the ori2">igi2">in or source of a person. i2">It i2">is a secondary layer placed OVER the i2">inner spi2">iri2">it to try to hi2">ide i2">it.

So when you are looki2">ing at a body and you see fi2">ish and bones and eyes and a face and you thi2">ink that as you look at THAT, you are SEEi2">ING the person, you are not. You are seei2">ing a wall of deni2">ial and separati2">ion. A di2">isgui2">ise. i2">It's desi2">igned to BLOCK you from seei2">ing the person that i2">is "trapped" i2">insi2">ide, locked up i2">in the body and unseen by anyone.

The body i2">is a devi2">ice for separati2">ion. And the golden rule always appli2">ies. What we see i2">in others we see i2">in ourselves. i2">In order to become aware that we are not a body ourselves we have to overcome all forms of separati2">ion and all attack. And only when we can not see ourselves as a body wi2">ill we be able to see past the bodi2">ies of others.

Thi2">is i2">is also the meani2">ing of "God i2">is i2">in everythi2">ing i2">I see because God i2">is i2">in my mi2">ind".... i2">ie, i2">if you can get to where you have awareness of God i2">in your mi2">ind, you wi2">ill STOP seei2">ing bodi2">ies enti2">irely because God i2">is not a body. i2">If you are seei2">ing God, you are not seei2">ing form. You cannot see two worlds. So thi2">is does NOT mean that you see God "i2">in the world", i2">it means that God i2">is ALL THERE i2">IS and THERE i2">IS NO WORLD.

i2">It's a huge challenge to actually get to an experi2">ienti2">ial state where a) you do not beli2">ieve you are a body at all (genui2">inely), b) you do not see your body as your self, c) your sense of i2">identi2">ity i2">is not attached to the body whatsoever, d) you do not see others as thei2">ir bodi2">ies, e) you recogni2">ize that all bodi2">ies are fi2">icti2">ional puppets that people dangle i2">in front of them to pretend to i2">interact, and f) that you do not need a body at all i2">in order to exi2">ist as di2">ivi2">ine spi2">iri2">it.

Overcomi2">ing the body i2">is the same thi2">ing as overcomi2">ing death. i2">If you can become free of the body consci2">iously and deli2">iberately wi2">ithout usi2">ing death to do so, you no longer need a body and can make i2">it di2">isappear. i2">It wi2">ill become transparent and wi2">ill vani2">ish.

"There i2">is nothi2">ing about me that you cannot attai2">in. i2">I have nothi2">ing that does not come from God. The mai2">in di2">ifference between us as yet i2">is that i2">I have NOTHi2">ING ELSE. Thi2">is leaves me i2">in a state of true holi2">iness, whi2">ich i2">is only a POTENTi2">IAL i2">in you."

Nothi2">ing belongs to you exclusi2">ively. Everythi2">ing i2">is shared by everyone i2">inclusi2">ively. Thi2">is i2">is the law of God.

"We come i2">in confi2">idence today, aware that what belongs to us i2">in truth i2">is what He gi2">ives. And we would wi2">ish for nothi2">ing else, for nothi2">ing else belongs to us i2">in truth."

"what i2">is Yours belongs to me as well"

"As every gi2">ift my brothers gi2">ive i2">is mi2">ine, so every gi2">ift i2">I gi2">ive belongs to me."

"We ask no more than what belongs to us i2">in truth."

"everythi2">ing WE do belongs to you as well"

"God gi2">ives WHATEVER belongs to Hi2">im, because He gi2">ives OF Hi2">IMSELF, and EVERYTHi2">ING belongs to Hi2">im."

"Every lovi2">ing thought held i2">in ANY part (of the Sonshi2">ip) belongs to every part."

"Shari2">ing the perfect Love of the Father, the Son must share what belongs to Hi2">im, for otherwi2">ise He wi2">ill not know the Father or the Son."

"And EVERYTHi2">ING belongs to each of them."

"What i2">is God's BELONGS to everyone, and i2">IS hi2">is due."

"The creati2">ions of every Son of God are yours, because every creati2">ion belongs to everyone, bei2">ing created for the Sonshi2">ip as a whole."

You have nothi2">ing that i2">is yours alone. Whi2">ich means you have nothi2">ing speci2">ial or exclusi2">ive or just for you. Thi2">is means you aren't speci2">ial, have not been granted speci2">ial favor, and don't have any treasures that belong just to you. Thi2">is however doesn't mean you have nothi2">ing at all, because i2">in fact you share everythi2">ing wi2">ith everyone. God's Ki2">ingdom i2">is not a place of exclusi2">ive ownershi2">ip. i2">It's ki2">ind of li2">ike an open buffet. Everyone i2">is welcome, everythi2">ing i2">is for everyone, everythi2">ing belongs to everyone, and everyone has si2">imultaneous access to everythi2">ing. i2">It's completely open and unli2">imi2">ited.

"Nothi2">ing real can be i2">increased except by shari2">ing."

God who i2">is complete, cannot add anythi2">ing to hi2">imself. He i2">is already i2">infi2">ini2">ite and everywhere. He i2">is ki2">ind of li2">ike a closed system that way. However, all parts of God host all of God, because every part of God i2">is God. And thi2">is means every part of God shares the whole of God. All of God belongs to every part of God, and every part of God i2">is whole.

God can therefore create by shari2">ing hi2">imself. He hosts hi2">is creati2">ions wi2">ithi2">in hi2">is own bei2">ing, li2">iterally shari2">ing hi2">is own exi2">istence. But thi2">is requi2">ires that anythi2">ing he creates, must be created to purely and completely share all of hi2">imself. Any created bei2">ing must have full access to everythi2">ing God has, and must i2">inheri2">it everythi2">ing from hi2">im.

i2">Inheri2">iti2">ing from God does not mean you recei2">ive a wi2">indfall that's exclusi2">ively just for you. i2">It's not li2">ike wi2">inni2">ing the lottery. Everythi2">ing that exi2">ists sti2">ill belongs to God, and i2">is hi2">im. But he creates you by allowi2">ing you to share everythi2">ing he has. He gi2">ives hi2">imself to you i2">in your creati2">ion. You i2">inheri2">it God, and i2">inheri2">it everythi2">ing from God, but God i2">is a co-owner of everythi2">ing he shares.

"i2">I who am host to God AM worthy of Hi2">im."

"When God GAVE Hi2">imself to you i2">in your creati2">ion, He ESTABLi2">ISHED you as host to Hi2">im forever."

"And yet, i2">it i2">is your mi2">ind that i2">IS the host to Hi2">im."

"The mi2">ind i2">is then i2">in a state of Grace, and naturally becomes graci2">ious, both to the Host wi2">ithi2">in and the stranger wi2">ithout. By bri2">ingi2">ing i2">in the stranger, he becomes your brother."

Thi2">is means that you are created to share everythi2">ing, and the only way you can exi2">ist at all i2">is i2">if you share absolutely everythi2">ing. God cannot add anythi2">ing onto the outsi2">ide of hi2">imself, so can only share what i2">is i2">insi2">ide of hi2">imself. You are hosted by God wi2">ithi2">in hi2">is own bei2">ing, and your enti2">ire functi2">ion must be to share everythi2">ing openly and fully. Only by shari2">ing i2">it can you have i2">it at all, and you must be wi2">illi2">ing to gi2">ive i2">it all i2">in order to have i2">it.

Thi2">is creates an envi2">ironment i2">in the Ki2">ingdom that we mi2">ight descri2">ibe as a totally open soci2">iety. i2">It's a relati2">ionshi2">ip i2">in whi2">ich everyone has total full access to everythi2">ing at all ti2">imes. Everyone has all of God. Everyone i2">is plugged i2">into God. Everyone has FULL access to everythi2">ing that exi2">ists, si2">imultaneously and i2">in parallel. One bei2">ing havi2">ing full access does not depri2">ive any other bei2">ing any ki2">ind of access. Thei2">ir access overlaps.

"You had everythi2">ing when you were created, just as everyone di2">id."

"Thi2">is i2">IS the mi2">iraculous power of the Soul. The fact that each Soul has thi2">is power completely i2">is a fact that i2">is enti2">irely ali2">ien to human thi2">inki2">ing, i2">in whi2">ich i2">if any ONE has everythi2">ing, there i2">is nothi2">ing LEFT."

You can exi2">ist only i2">if God shares everythi2">ing that exi2">ists wi2">ith you. And now both of you have everythi2">ing that already exi2">ists. And you can only exi2">ist i2">if you are wi2">illi2">ing to fully share everythi2">ing that exi2">ists wi2">ith everyone else. Whi2">ich means that no-one anywhere i2">in the Ki2">ingdom has anythi2">ing that anyone else lacks, and no-one lacks anythi2">ing that anyone else has. Everythi2">ing belongs to everyone forever.

Thi2">is also leads to the fact that no-one can have anythi2">ing that belongs ONLY to them. You have absolutely nothi2">ing that i2">is yours alone. The ego begs to di2">iffer, because "the ego i2">is the i2">idea of selfi2">ishness." i2">It i2">is the part of you that beli2">ieves i2">in speci2">ialness and i2">in exclusi2">ivi2">ity. i2">It wants to have everythi2">ing for i2">itself, such that i2">it shares nothi2">ing wi2">ith anyone. The ego i2">is the anti2">ithesi2">is of shari2">ing and openness, and wants exclusi2">ive ri2">ights, ownershi2">ip and control. i2">It was the desi2">ire not to share that led to the separati2">ion. "You were at peace unti2">il you asked for speci2">ial favor, and God di2">id not gi2">ive i2">it."

What thi2">is leads to i2">is the truth that, i2">in and of yourself, by yourself, alone, you have absolutely NOTHi2">ING that belongs exclusi2">ively to you. Nothi2">ing you can put your name tag on, nothi2">ing you can say i2">is legally yours, nothi2">ing that i2">is just yours and no-one else's. i2">If i2">it seems that you have such thi2">ings, possessi2">ions, toys, clothes, cars, houses, bodi2">ies, whatever, whi2">ich seem to be exclusi2">ively "yours", and no-one else's, then you are ali2">igned wi2">ith the ego.

We need to recogni2">ize that i2">in and of our own selves, we can do nothi2">ing. We have no li2">ife wi2">ithout God. We have no power wi2">ithout God. We have NOTHi2">ING wi2">ithout God. You don't even have any exi2">istence wi2">ithout God. You have nothi2">ing that i2">is personal just to you whi2">ich i2">is yours alone. Nothi2">ing belongs just to you. i2">In effect, you are utterly powerless and ti2">iny and weak and afrai2">id and empty and non-exi2">istent i2">if i2">it all boi2">ils down to "what i2">is only mi2">ine".

"i2">I am nothi2">ing wi2">ithout the Father, and YOU are nothi2">ing wi2">ithout me because by DENYi2">ING the Father you deny YOURSELF."

"The presence of fear i2">is a sure si2">ign that you are trusti2">ing i2">in your own strength."

"Here agai2">in i2">is the paradox often referred to i2">in the course. To say, "Of myself i2">I can do nothi2">ing" i2">is to gai2">in all power. And yet i2">it i2">is but a seemi2">ing paradox. As God created you, you have all power. The i2">image you made of yourself has none."

Thi2">is i2">is where i2">it becomes i2">interesti2">ing. You alone, on your own, i2">in i2">isolati2">ion, have absolutely NOTHi2">ING. That i2">is to say, i2">ignori2">ing God for a moment, i2">ignori2">ing your i2">inheri2">itance, i2">ignori2">ing anythi2">ing that anyone else has, you actually have absolutely ZERO "for yourself'. Zero that i2">is "of you". Nothi2">ing that has been sourced i2">in you, that you have i2">invented, wi2">ithi2">in yourself, whi2">ich i2">is unshared or belongs to you alone.

That really means that you don't have any ki2">ind of speci2">ial talents or abi2">ili2">iti2">ies that can be sai2">id to "make you uni2">ique". You don't have any speci2">ial "super powers" that others lack. You don't have any exclusi2">ive "somethi2">ing", some ki2">ind of speci2">ial secret treasure, that no-one else has. You don't have any possessi2">ions that really are yours alone, whi2">ich i2">is easi2">ily proven by the fact that anyone can take them away from you, and they all can be lost, because they were never really yours to begi2">in wi2">ith.

So you are empty. Wi2">ithout God, you are nothi2">ing. Wi2">ithout God you don't even have exi2">istence. HOWEVER, you are not wi2">ithout God. i2">If you are wi2">illi2">ing to go beyond your ego, you i2">in fact regai2">in access to your i2">inheri2">itance. You become once agai2">in a member of the Sonshi2">ip. You open up to recei2">ivi2">ing your i2">inheri2">itance, whi2">ich i2">is everythi2">ing real, i2">in exchange for gi2">ivi2">ing up the NOTHi2">ING that you have otherwi2">ise. "We wi2">ill gai2">in EVERYTHi2">ING by gi2">ivi2">ing Hi2">IM the power and the

glory, and keepi2">ing NO i2">illusi2">ions of where they are."

"As You created me, i2">I can gi2">ive up nothi2">ing You gave me. What You di2">id not gi2">ive has no reali2">ity. What loss can i2">I anti2">ici2">ipate except the loss of fear, and the return of Love i2">into my mi2">ind?"

"for the si2">imple wi2">illi2">ingness to gi2">ive up nothi2">ing, BECAUSE i2">it i2">is nothi2">ing" "i2">Is i2">it a sacri2">ifi2">ice to gi2">ive up nothi2">ing, and to recei2">ive the Love of God forever?"

"Of yourself you can do none of these thi2">ings."

"Speci2">ialness i2">is the functi2">ion that you gave yourself. i2">It stands for you alone, as self-created, self-mai2">intai2">ined, i2">in need of nothi2">ing, and unjoi2">ined wi2">ith anythi2">ing beyond the body. i2">In i2">its eyes, you are a separate uni2">iverse, wi2">ith all the power to hold i2">itself complete wi2">ithi2">in i2">itself, wi2">ith every entry shut agai2">inst i2">intrusi2">ion, and every wi2">indow barred agai2">inst the li2">ight."

So here are your opti2">ions. On the one hand you have what the ego i2">is offeri2">ing, whi2">ich i2">is absolutely nothi2">ing, di2">isgui2">ised as somethi2">ing speci2">ial and rare, somethi2">ing whi2">ich i2">is exclusi2">ive just for you, somethi2">ing speci2">ial, whi2">ich makes you i2">important and uni2">ique and di2">ifferent. But whi2">ich really i2">is made of nothi2">ing at all, and i2">is not somethi2">ing you can really have, nor can i2">it last forever. And by tryi2">ing to have i2">it, you may seem to gai2">in the fi2">icti2">ional world, and lose your soul.

"What profi2">iteth a man i2">if he gai2">in the whole world and lose hi2">is own Soul?" The alternati2">ive on offer, i2">is that you are i2">invi2">ited as a guest to joi2">in i2">in the Ki2">ingdom of God, i2">in whi2">ich you are allowed to parti2">ici2">ipate openly, freely, and fully. Provi2">ided that you are wi2">illi2">ing to share everythi2">ing that exi2">ists wi2">ith everyone. And provi2">ided you are wi2">illi2">ing to share your enti2">ire self wi2">ith everyone. And provi2">ided you are wi2">illi2">ing to grant everyone total free access to everythi2">ing at all ti2">imes.

And provi2">ided you do not i2">in any way attempt to hoard anythi2">ing for yourself, to have any trace of selfi2">ishness, nor to regard anythi2">ing as belongi2">ing ONLY to you. That nothi2">ing belongs ONLY to you doesn't mean you have nothi2">ing, only that what you HAVE i2">isn't ONLY yours to have and must be shared. You DO have power, but i2">it only so long as you acknowledge that you SHARE thi2">is power wi2">ith God and wi2">ith everyone. To take i2">it away from them, to have i2">it just for you, i2">is to stri2">ip i2">it from yourself and be powerless.

Provi2">ided you are wi2">illi2">ing to enter i2">into a relati2">ionshi2">ip wi2">ith the whole sonshi2">ip, where everythi2">ing belongs to everyone equally, then you can enter the Ki2">ingdom of God. To recei2">ive your i2">inheri2">itance i2">isn't to recei2">ive a bi2">ig speci2">ial chri2">istmas gi2">ift that no-one else gets to play wi2">ith. All thi2">ings that are real, that you can actually HAVE, have to belong to everyone. i2">It belongs to God, i2">it belongs to you, AND i2">it belongs to all your brothers. And everyone can access all of i2">it all the ti2">ime at the same ti2">ime. "To have all, gi2">ive all to all."

So you can ei2">ither have basi2">ically nothi2">ing for yourself, di2">isgui2">ised as recei2">ivi2">ing the i2">illusory ri2">iches of the world, whi2">ich appear to be valuable bullshi2">it i2">items that you don't even really want, and whi2">ich have no real value, but whi2">ich appear to be extremely valuable treasures. Or, you can openly share non-exclusi2">ive ri2">ights wi2">ith everyone, to own ALL of the Ki2">ingdom of God, ALONG Wi2">ITH God and wi2">ith everyone else, i2">in whi2">ich everythi2">ing belongs to everyone.

The gi2">ifts of God are gi2">iven i2">in order to "passed forward". He gi2">ives you the power to create, so that you can share and gi2">ive what you have been gi2">iven. Qui2">ite si2">imply, "gi2">ive what you have been gi2">iven" i2">is the only rule of the system. Gi2">ive the love that God has gi2">iven you. Nothi2">ing i2">is ever gi2">iven to just you alone, i2">it i2">is gi2">iven FOR everyone.

"The therapi2">ist does not heal; he LETS HEALi2">ING BE. HE can poi2">int to darkness, but he CANNOT bri2">ing li2">ight OF Hi2">IMSELF, for li2">ight i2">is NOT of hi2">im. But bei2">ing FOR hi2">im, i2">it MUST be for hi2">is pati2">ient."

"Heali2">ing must be for everyone"

"i2">It MUST be for your brother, BECAUSE i2">it i2">is for you."

"The gi2">ifts you have are not for you alone. What He has come to offer you, you now must learn to gi2">ive. Thi2">is i2">is the lesson that Hi2">is gi2">ivi2">ing holds, for He has saved you from the soli2">itude you sought to make, i2">in whi2">ich to hi2">ide from God."

"i2">It wi2">ill NOT be for you alone, for therei2">in lay i2">its mi2">isery."

"Atonement i2">is for all, because i2">it i2">is the way to UNDO the beli2">ief that ANYTHi2">ING i2">is for you ALONE."

"Would God have created a Voi2">ice for you alone? Could you hear Hi2">is answer EXCEPT as He answers ALL of God's Sons?"

"Salvati2">ion i2">IS Hi2">is Wi2">ill BECAUSE you share i2">it. NOT for you alone, but for the Self whi2">ich i2">IS the Son of God."

"The contrast i2">is far greater than you thi2">ink, for you wi2">ill love thi2">is concept of yourself, BECAUSE i2">IT WAS NOT MADE FOR YOU ALONE."

Qui2">ite si2">imply, you ei2">ither can be utterly powerless, afrai2">id, weak, lacki2">ing, depri2">ived, mi2">iserable, si2">ick, unhappy, lost, desperate, i2">improveri2">ished, bereft, and empty, OR .... you can acknowledge that the ONLY real thi2">ing you can HAVE i2">is everythi2">ing God has gi2">iven already, and you can ONLY have i2">it i2">IF YOU ARE Wi2">ILLi2">ING TO SHARE i2">IT. Be selfi2">ish and end up alone and wi2">ith nothi2">ing, or share wi2">ith everyone and gai2">in everythi2">ing there i2">is to have.

You can truly have what EVERYONE has, and only by ackowledgi2">ing that i2">it belong to them as well, OR you wi2">ill end up empty handed. To try to take possessi2">ion of some part of heaven for yourself, all of heaven wi2">ill sli2">ip through your fi2">ingers. The more you try to own somethi2">ing, the less you have i2">it. The more you try to depend on yourself alone, the less you become able to deal wi2">ith li2">ife. The more you try to "go i2">it alone", the more helpless you become.

God i2">is your strength! Hi2">is shared strength i2">is li2">iterally YOUR strength. Wi2">ithout God, you have no strength at all. Of yourself you are nothi2">ing and have nothi2">ing. He i2">is the battery-pack whi2">ich fuels your power. However, because you are OF GOD, you HAVE EVERYTHi2">ING AND ARE EVERYTHi2">ING. God's power belongs to you, God's li2">ife belongs to you, God's enti2">ire creati2">ion belongs to you.

Everythi2">ing real i2">is YOURS. i2">It i2">is not just partly yours, i2">it i2">is FULLY yours. But i2">it i2">is also fully everyone's. You cannot have i2">it by graspi2">ing for i2">it to keep i2">it for yourself, you can ONLY have i2">it by acknowledgi2">ing that i2">it i2">is EVERYONE'S Ri2">IGHT. And therefore you have to be open to Gi2">IVi2">ING i2">IT. You must gi2">ive what you have recei2">ived, be open to shari2">ing what you have, and everythi2">ing must belong to everyone.

To admi2">it that you have nothi2">ing SPECi2">IAL about you, i2">is humi2">ili2">ity. But thi2">is does not leave you powerless. i2">It si2">imply leaves you wi2">ithout a SPECi2">IAL power that you i2">invented. i2">It stri2">ips you of your "super powers", your fi2">icti2">ional sense of personal strength, and your i2">illusi2">ion that you can do thi2">is ON YOUR OWN. You cannot do ANYTHi2">ING on your own. You are helpless and powerless on your own. The ONLY way you can li2">ive at all i2">is to joi2">in wi2">ith God and let hi2">im help you.

Thi2">is i2">is why you have to surrender your ego. You si2">imply can't do li2">ife by yourself. When you try to you wi2">ill depend on your own exclusi2">ive strength, whi2">ich i2">is pi2">iti2">iful at best and nothi2">ing at worst. And you wi2">ill not be able to deal wi2">ith anythi2">ing. Only Wi2">ITH God do you have stength. Only Wi2">ITH God do you have anythi2">ing at all! But wi2">ith God, you are ALL POWERFUL. Wi2">ith God, you CAN DO ANYTHi2">ING.

"You can do ANYTHi2">ING i2">I ask." "The power to work mi2">iracles belongs to you." "There i2">is nothi2">ing my holi2">iness cannot do." "Do hi2">is works." "What the holy spi2">iri2">it enables you to do i2">is clearly not of thi2">is world."

"He bri2">ings you gi2">ifts that are not of thi2">is world, and only he, to whom they have been gi2">iven, CAN make sure that you recei2">ive them. He wi2">ill place them on YOUR throne, when you make room for hi2">im on hi2">is."

"The Holy Spi2">iri2">it i2">is i2">invi2">isi2">ible, but you CAN see the results of Hi2">is Presence, and through them, you wi2">ill learn that He i2">is there. What He enables you to do i2">is clearly NOT of thi2">is world, for mi2">iracles vi2">iolate every law of reali2">ity, as thi2">is world judges i2">it. Every law of ti2">ime and space, of magni2">itude and mass, of predi2">icti2">ion and control, i2">is transcended, for what the Holy Spi2">iri2">it enables you to do i2">is clearly beyond ALL of them. Percei2">ivi2">ing Hi2">is RESULTS, you wi2">ill understand where He MUST be, and fi2">inally KNOW what He i2">is."

"God gi2">ives WHATEVER belongs to Hi2">im, because He gi2">ives OF Hi2">IMSELF, and EVERYTHi2">ING belongs to Hi2">im."

"The Uni2">ity that speci2">ialness deni2">ies wi2">ill save them all, for what i2">is One can HAVE no speci2">ialness. And EVERYTHi2">ING belongs to each of them."

"i2">It knows that i2">it i2">is EVERYWHERE, just as i2">it has EVERYTHi2">ING and FOREVER." "No-one who knows that he has everythi2">ing could seek for li2">imi2">itati2">ion, nor COULD he value the body's offeri2">ings."

"Bei2">ing wholly pure, everyone joi2">ined i2">in i2">it HAS everythi2">ing. Thi2">is i2">is NOT the basi2">is for ANY love relati2">ionshi2">ip i2">in whi2">ich the ego enters. For EVERY relati2">ionshi2">ip on whi2">ich the ego embarks i2">IS speci2">ial."

"No-one who has everythi2">ing WANTS the ego. i2">Its own maker, then, DOES NOT WANT i2">IT."

"Who would have more OR less i2">is not aware that he has everythi2">ing."

"i2">Innocence i2">is i2">INCAPABLE of sacri2">ifi2">ici2">ing anythi2">ing, because the i2">innocent mi2">ind HAS everythi2">ing and stri2">ives only to PROTECT i2">its Wholeness."

"When EVERYONE has EVERYTHi2">ING, i2">indi2">ivi2">idual contri2">ibuti2">ions to the Sonshi2">ip wi2">ill no longer be necessary."

"Your i2">inheri2">itance can nei2">ither be bought NOR sold. There can BE no di2">isi2">inheri2">ited parts of the Sonshi2">ip, for God i2">is whole, and all hi2">is extensi2">ions are li2">ike Hi2">im."

"Glory i2">is your i2">inheri2">itance, gi2">iven your Soul by i2">its Creator, that you mi2">ight EXTEND i2">it."

"Those who wi2">itness for me are expressi2">ing, through thei2">ir mi2">iracles, that they have abandoned depri2">ivati2">ion i2">in favor of the abundance they have learned BELONGS to them."

i2">I used to thi2">ink i2">I knew what thi2">is meant. But the defi2">ini2">iti2">ion i2">is changi2">ing ri2">ight before my eyes.

i2">I used to beli2">ieve that i2">if i2">I was loved uncondi2">iti2">ionally, i2">it meant that God loves me regardless of vari2">ious attri2">ibutes that i2">I have, even i2">if i2">I keep those attri2">ibutes. So let's say i2">I have a crooked leg, and i2">I look li2">ike i2">I have the hi2">ind legs of an ass, i2">I would perhaps say, well, God sti2">ill loves me despi2">ite the fact that i2">I can't walk strai2">ight to save my li2">ife. And that seemed somewhat comforti2">ing. But there was always a certai2">in unease about thi2">is because, li2">ike, how could there be complete love at the same ti2">ime as bodi2">ily forms or i2">illusi2">ions exi2">isti2">ing?

i2">In ACi2">IM we're taught that only the truth i2">is true and only God's creati2">ion exi2">ists and nothi2">ing else exi2">ists. That there i2">is no world. That there hasn't been a separati2">ion. That i2">illusi2">ions are not real. So that really means, my crooked legs do not exi2">ist. So God lovi2">ing me uncondi2">iti2">ionally really has to be redefi2">ined, because whi2">ile i2">it i2">is always true that God loves uncondi2">iti2">ionally, i2">it also has to be true that God ONLY loves that whi2">ich i2">is not condi2">iti2">ional. God cannot be uncondi2">iti2">ional about condi2">iti2">ionali2">ity. Havi2">ing crooked legs i2">is condi2">iti2">ional, li2">imi2">ited, and an i2">illusi2">ion, and the ego wants to run wi2">ith i2">it and get God's approval.

So thi2">is really bri2">ings i2">into questi2">ion, WHO AM i2">I. Who i2">is the `i2">I` or `me` that God i2">is lovi2">ing uncondi2">iti2">ionally. Does God love thi2">is li2">imi2">ited i2">illusory me uncondi2">iti2">ionally, OR... i2">is God lovi2">ing some other `real` me that i2">is actually lovable? Does he perhaps OVERLOOK my crooked legs and i2">is fi2">ixated only on the Chri2">ist i2">in me, the real me, whi2">ich he loves wi2">ithout condi2">iti2">ion or li2">imi2">itati2">ion, recogni2">izi2">ing that the Chri2">ist i2">in me i2">is not li2">imi2">ited or condi2">iti2">ioned? And what happens to my self-hate i2">if i2">I accept hi2">is love - do i2">I keep i2">it? No. i2">If *i2">I* want to be uncondi2">iti2">ionally loved, then i2">I need to i2">identi2">ify myself AS my `uncondi2">iti2">ioned love self`, rather than my ego, or my body, or my behavi2">iors, or how i2">I look, or how i2">I beli2">ieve i2">I am not lovable, whi2">ich i2">includes ALL the li2">imi2">iti2">ing i2">ideas about myself. Those are not really ME.

i2">It would be ni2">ice i2">if my i2">illusory i2">identi2">iti2">ies as a body, as a behavi2">ior, as a set of thoughts etc, would be uncondi2">iti2">ionally loved. And i2">it i2">is true that God i2">is ALWAYS i2">in a state of lovi2">ing wi2">ith no requi2">irements. BUT, and because of Hi2">is permanent perfect love, He loves the TRUTH of what i2">I am BECAUSE he does not see or recogni2">ize or acknowledge the bullshi2">it that i2">I am not. So i2">I am not really a body wi2">ith a crooked leg, or wi2">ith a funny walk, or a person wi2">ith a strange beli2">ief, or someone who talks i2">in a wei2">ird accent. God i2">isn't lovi2">ing me uncondi2">iti2">ionally because of these thi2">ings, but i2">IN SPi2">ITE OF these thi2">ings, i2">in recogni2">iti2">ion of who i2">I actually AM and not who or what i2">I thi2">ink i2">I am.

So i2">I guess there's thi2">is ego/new-agey versi2">ion of uncondi2">iti2">ional love that says my body i2">is real, my ego i2">is real, i2">I am a separate self, and at the same ti2">ime, God sees and acknowledges thi2">is separate self and gi2">ives the old `nod and wi2">ink` that thi2">is separate self can be kept and loved. But that's not really possi2">ible. Here's the truth. i2">If God, as Li2">IGHT, were to shi2">ine toward these i2">illusory forms of `myself` i2">in attempt to love them uncondi2">iti2">ionally, THEY WOULD Di2">ISAPPEAR. They would be HEALED. Because all of these forms of self are actually forms of error, forms of separati2">ion, and forms of si2">ickness. They are symbols of separati2">ion that's aren't real or TRUE and God can't love a li2">ie.

So yes i2">I could be i2">in a transi2">iti2">ionary phase where i2">I sti2">ill have a wonky leg and i2">I somehow open up to some amount of uncondti2">ional love, but as i2">I do so, as i2">I allow that love to enter `me`, i2">it MUST transform me, and MUST go beyond my wonky leg. The uncondi2">iti2">ional love doesn't say "i2">I love you even wi2">ith your crappy leg". i2">It says, "i2">I love you BESi2">IDES and i2">IN SPi2">ITE OF and BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE a crappy leg." i2">It looks to the real me, the Chri2">ist me, the perfect me.

Thi2">is i2">is how i2">I am seei2">ing uncondi2">iti2">ional love bei2">ing redefi2">ined for me. As i2">I open up to allow God to love me more, God i2">is remi2">indi2">ing me of who i2">I really am and i2">I am 'becomi2">ing love', awakeni2">ing to love, whi2">ich i2">is transcendi2">ing all of the excuses and reasons WHY i2">I am not love or not lovable. All my si2">icknesses are expressi2">ions of an attempt to not be loved. All of my sense of separati2">ion from God i2">is an expressi2">ion of my attempt not to be loved. All of my vi2">icti2">imi2">izati2">ion i2">is an attempt not to be loved or to justi2">ify stayi2">ing unlovable. All of these forms and i2">illusi2">ions are barri2">iers agai2">inst love. Yes, love loves all the ti2">ime, but love doesn't love what doesn't exi2">ist. Love doesn't love forms or bodi2">ies or i2">illusi2">ions or i2">images or thoughts.

Love loves SO THAT these thi2">ings DO NOT EXi2">IST. i2">It i2">is the same as fore-gi2">iveness - fore-gi2">iveness looks wi2">ith love SO THAT mi2">istakes i2">in percepti2">ion are not made and so that judgement doesn't ari2">ise. Si2">imi2">ilarly love loves uncondti2">ionally SO THAT heaven i2">is always mai2">intai2">ined, so that you are always Chri2">ist, and so that NOTHi2">ING ELSE CAN HAPPEN. Uncondi2">iti2">ional love sustai2">ins reali2">ity, i2">it doesn't justi2">ify or gi2">ive a nod of acceptance to i2">illusi2">ions. Love loves SO THAT `condi2">iti2">ions` do not ari2">ise - i2">it doesn't love real condi2">iti2">ions! Love loves so that there i2">isn't anythi2">ing that 'needs' to be loved, because i2">it i2">IS loved, just as forgi2">iveness fore-gi2">ives so that there i2">is nothi2">ing TO forgi2">ive because all i2">IS forgi2">iven.

And yet love i2">is gentle so i2">it can seem li2">ike i2">it does thi2">is. i2">It can seem i2">I am lovable i2">in spi2">ite of my crooked horse legs. But really what i2">I'm doi2">ing, i2">if i2">I'm allowi2">ing myself to be loved, i2">is actually reli2">inqui2">ishi2">ing i2">identi2">ifi2">icati2">ion wi2">ith the horse legs and i2">identi2">ifyi2">ing myself AS love. i2">I can't keep i2">illusi2">ions i2">if i2">I want to accept a transcendental love.

God loves me - not the body me - my spi2">iri2">itual REAL ME - uncondi2">iti2">ionally. God loves you uncondi2">iti2">ionally - the real you. i2">If God were to be ABLE To love your stupi2">id i2">illusi2">ions as though they were real, you would be AWARE of uncondi2">iti2">ional love even whi2">ile you are separate from God! That's totally i2">impossi2">ible. That's why you are asleep - because you do NOT have awareness of who you really are or the fact that God loves uncondi2">iti2">ionally. God's uncondi2">iti2">ional love doesn't vi2">iolate the blocks that YOU put i2">in place to keep that love out, i2">in the name of justi2">ifyi2">ing and glori2">ifyi2">ing and SPi2">IRi2">ITUALi2">IZi2">ING the forms of error that your ego i2">is worshi2">ippi2">ing. The ego wants to spi2">iri2">ituali2">ize everythi2">ing unreal by sayi2">ing God loves i2">it. Nope. God loves SO THAT i2">ILLUSi2">IONS DO NOT EXi2">IST.

God does not make your i2">illusi2">ions real and doesn't 'approve' them for your ego to keep. Otherwi2">ise the ego would have perfect justi2">ifi2">icati2">ion for stayi2">ing separate from God. God sees you - who you really are, as Chri2">ist, as di2">ivi2">ine perfecti2">ion, and i2">it i2">is YOUR REAL SELF that He loves, and i2">it i2">is your real self that you really are. He loves to remi2">ind you of who you are i2">IN love, AS love, Wi2">ITH love. All the rest of 'you' that you want to be loved - your manky body, your crappy i2">illusory li2">ife of sufferi2">ing... i2">its horse shi2">it. You don't love i2">it because you CAN'T. Love i2">it and i2">it must be HEALED. Li2">ife sucks BECAUSE you refuse to accept love. Love would li2">iterally CHANGE your li2">ife, not make i2">it 'acceptable'.

So let's admi2">it i2">it. You don't REALLY want God to love your crooked legs, do you? You don't really want God to come along and say, yup, i2">I see you look li2">ike the back end of an ass, and i2">I love you anyway. You don't want that. You'd be li2">ike, well, that's ni2">ice, but now i2">I sti2">ill look li2">ike a mule. What you want i2">is fri2">icki2">ing HEALi2">ING. You want to remember you are not a body. You want to be healed i2">in your mi2">ind so that your i2">identi2">ity can be revealed as Chri2">ist - as i2">immortal Spi2">iri2">it, not as some donkey. You don't really want God to uncondi2">iti2">ionally love your shi2">it. You should want God to li2">ift you i2">into the awareness that you are ONLY LOVE and nothi2">ing else. Only the truth i2">is true.

God loves you. God doesn't condemn your i2">illusi2">ions because they don't exi2">ist. But God does want you to remember how much you are loved, and you can only do that by reali2">izi2">ing you are love i2">itself and nothi2">ing else. Only love can be loved. All the 'rest' that you thi2">ink you are 'left wi2">ith' that God doesn't love... don't worry, i2">it doesn't really exi2">ist and i2">it's not who or what you are. i2">Isn't that a reli2">ief? Di2">id you really want God to gi2">ive total approval for your pi2">ile of shi2">it ego? He can only love what i2">is real. So let go of what you are not and return to an awareness of love as i2">it really i2">is.

Last ni2">ight i2">I used the below process, but i2">in a di2">ifferent way. i2">I di2">id i2">it VERY slowly. i2">I re-stated each phrase several ti2">imes over and really let i2">it si2">ink i2">in before movi2">ing on to the next one. i2">I actually found thi2">is to be qui2">ite powerful.

For example, i2">in sayi2">ing that i2">I deci2">ided wrongly.. when i2">I really dwell on that i2">I come to reali2">ize that i2">I actually DECi2">IDED and i2">I get i2">in touch wi2">ith that sense of responsi2">ibi2">ili2">ity and deci2">isi2">ion-maki2">ing at havi2">ing been the one who not only put i2">in place thi2">is upset, but actually chose i2">it myself.

There i2">is tremendous power i2">in getti2">ing i2">in touch wi2">ith your power of deci2">isi2">ion. Your deci2">isi2">ion maki2">ing i2">is not just a neutral act, i2">it has power to i2">it. i2">It i2">is causal. And i2">I've also started to dabble i2">in the i2">idea of... .i2">instead of just reacti2">ing to stuff and goi2">ing along wi2">ith i2">it, i2">instead, stoppi2">ing and DECi2">IDi2">ING... "i2">I am" or "i2">I am not" .... and feeli2">ing a ki2">ind of i2">instantaneous change si2">imply by maki2">ing a fi2">irm deci2">isi2">ion.

i2">I also i2">inqui2">ired about the last sentence... letti2">ing Hi2">im deci2">ide for God for me. Jesus clari2">ifi2">ied that thi2">is really means allowi2">ing Holy Spi2">iri2">it to 'favor' or 'choose FOR rather than AGAi2">INST' God, on my behalf. Allowi2">ing Hi2">im to favor God and to then accept Hi2">is vi2">iewpoi2">int. i2">In thi2">is way, "for God" really means "towards God" or "i2">in agreement wi2">ith God". That made more sense to me.

"i2">I must have deci2">ided wrongly because i2">I am NOT at peace.

i2">I made the deci2">isi2">ion myself, but i2">I can also deci2">ide otherwi2">ise.

i2">I Wi2">ILL to deci2">ide otherwi2">ise, because i2">I WANT to be at peace.

i2">I do NOT feel gui2">ilty, because the Holy Spi2">iri2">it wi2">ill undo ALL the consequences of my wrong deci2">isi2">ion i2">IF i2">I Wi2">ILL LET Hi2">IM.

i2">I Wi2">ILL to let Hi2">im by allowi2">ing Hi2">im to deci2">ide for God for me."

i2">It's also qui2">ite i2">important to keep i2">in mi2">ind the statement Jesus makes just pri2">ior to thi2">is prayer:

"But let me fi2">irst remi2">ind you of somethi2">ing i2">I told you myself. Whenever you are not wholly joyous, i2">it i2">is because you have reacted wi2">ith a lack of love to some Soul whi2">ich God created. Percei2">ivi2">ing thi2">is as si2">in, you become defensi2">ive because you EXPECT ATTACK. The deci2">isi2">ion to react i2">in that way, however, was YOURS, and can therefore be undone. i2">It CANNOT be undone by repentance i2">in the usual sense, because thi2">is i2">impli2">ies gui2">ilt. i2">If you allow yourself to feel gui2">ilty, you wi2">ill rei2">inforce the error, rather than allowi2">ing i2">it to be undone FOR you.

Deci2">isi2">ions CANNOT be di2">iffi2">icult. Thi2">is i2">is obvi2">ious i2">if you reali2">ize that you must ALREADY have made a deci2">isi2">ion NOT to be wholly joyous i2">if that i2">is what you feel. Therefore, the fi2">irst step i2">in the undoi2">ing i2">is to recogni2">ize that YOU ACTi2">IVELY DECi2">IDED WRONGLY, BUT CAN AS ACTi2">IVELY DECi2">IDE OTHERWi2">ISE.

Be very fi2">irm wi2">ith yourselves i2">in thi2">is, and keep yourselves fully aware of the fact that the UNDOi2">ING process, whi2">ich does NOT come from you, i2">is nevertheless Wi2">ITHi2">IN you because God placed i2">it there. YOUR part i2">is merely to return your thi2">inki2">ing to the poi2">int at whi2">ich the error was made, and gi2">ive i2">it over to the Atonement i2">in peace. Say to yourselves the followi2">ing, as si2">incerely as you can, rememberi2">ing that the Holy Spi2">iri2">it wi2">ill respond fully to your sli2">ightest i2">invi2">itati2">ion:"

We may not reali2">ize i2">it, but from bi2">irth onward most of us came to beli2">ieve that we are our body. That li2">iterally, thi2">is physi2">ical object wi2">ith arms and legs i2">is our own self. There's my toes, there's my fi2">ingers, there's my face, there's "me". Parents talked about "you" thi2">is way. You talked about you thi2">is way, aski2">ing yourself, what am i2">I?

And we look upon thi2">is strange thi2">ing i2">in the mi2">irror and cannot qui2">ite fathom what i2">it i2">is why or how we came to be thi2">is strangely shaped creature of extraordi2">inary complexi2">ity, the li2">ikes of whi2">ich we have no i2">idea how i2">it functi2">ions.

What we have to reali2">ize i2">is that thi2">is i2">is the false starti2">ing poi2">int, and thi2">is i2">is the state of i2">impri2">isonment. Beli2">ievi2">ing we are a body i2">is completely a mi2">istake. A total error i2">in percepti2">ion. And i2">in fact the body was made wi2">ith and i2">in order to produce false percepti2">ion.

The body's eyes cannot see, the ears cannot hear, all i2">its senses are back to front and i2">it reports on i2">illusi2">ions as i2">if they're real. The body i2">is a li2">ie machi2">ine. And yet there we are starti2">ing out by beli2">ievi2">ing every word i2">it says, everythi2">ing i2">it does, everythi2">ing i2">it seems to tell us, even to the extent of beli2">ievi2">ing i2">it i2">is our own self. And we are CLOSE to i2">it that we thi2">ink everythi2">ing i2">it experi2">iences WE are experi2">ienci2">ing di2">irectly.

So i2">invested i2">is thi2">is beli2">ief that we are a body, that we have taken somethi2">ing whi2">ich i2">is utterly not a body whatsoever and have tri2">ied to smush i2">it together and bi2">ind i2">it and joi2">in i2">it and strap them together i2">into one lump, to call i2">it myself. We may not reali2">ize, there i2">is a YOU, and then there i2">is a BODY, and the two are not the same

i2">In fact, the you that you really are i2">is SO UNLi2">IKE the body i2">in every si2">ingle way that i2">if you were to catch si2">ight of i2">it you'd be astoni2">ished that you ever thought you could be a lump of flesh and bones. But si2">ince the body i2">itself was made to block awareness of thi2">is, to act as a temptati2">ion devi2">ice and a way to decei2">ive ourselves, we're qui2">ite lost i2">in i2">it.

"The body i2">is the i2">instrument the mi2">ind made i2">in i2">its stri2">ivi2">ing to decei2">ive i2">itself."

We di2">id a VERY good job of decei2">ivi2">ing ourselves. To such an extent that almost all consci2">ious recogni2">iti2">ion of not bei2">ing a body i2">is blotted out by the body. And so as we attempt to become more spi2">iri2">itual or to reawaken, we're goi2">ing to run up agai2">inst a very basi2">ic fact.

The body i2">is NOT who you are at all, but you heavi2">ily beli2">ieve i2">IT i2">IS YOU. And on the basi2">is of beli2">ievi2">ing i2">it i2">is you, and backed up by everyone else beli2">ievi2">ing thei2">ir body i2">is thei2">ir self also, you have spent years upon years of rei2">inforci2">ing thi2">is "uni2">iti2">ing" of self and body, regardi2">ing i2">it as yourself, talki2">ing about i2">it as i2">if i2">it's your self, worshi2">ippi2">ing i2">it, cleani2">ing i2">it, feedi2">ing i2">it, sexi2">ing i2">it, usi2">ing i2">it i2">in vari2">ious ways, all under the seemi2">ingly clever gui2">ise that thi2">is i2">is YOU doi2">ing thi2">is stuff, i2">it's YOU looki2">ing i2">in the mi2">irror, and i2">it's YOU that's gorgeous today.

When you look at soci2">iety, look at the news, look at how people talk about bodi2">ies. Almost every reference to a person i2">is ACTUALLY a reference to thei2">ir body. "Joe di2">id thi2">is"... well no, joe's body di2">id. Joe i2">is not a body. Thi2">is i2">is pretty seri2">ious, how far reachi2">ing thi2">is i2">is. We've gone really really far i2">into thi2">is di2">istorti2">ion. Every si2">ingle way that we confuse ourselves wi2">ith "our own body" - and by the way you don't really HAVE a body as a spi2">iri2">it - i2">is a mi2">istaken false percepti2">ion of ourselves. i2">It's delusi2">ional. i2">It's li2">ike sayi2">ing you are your jeans and t-shi2">irt and shoes.

We've become lost i2">in our bodi2">ies. Tangled up i2">in form. Confused about who and what we are. Decei2">ived by appearances. Tempted to regard thi2">is object i2">in the mi2">irror as though i2">it i2">is our self and to then preen i2">it and decorate i2">it and worshi2">ip i2">it and feel bad about i2">it all based on the beli2">ief that i2">it i2">is you. Thi2">is i2">is the bi2">ig problem that needs correcti2">ion. Thi2">is i2">is body i2">identi2">ifi2">icati2">ion - whereby the Son of God i2">is tryi2">ing to prove he i2">is NOT a spi2">iri2">it, NOT a mi2">ind, and ONLY a body. i2">It's the complete opposi2">ite of awakeni2">ing.

So i2">if we're on a spi2">iri2">itual path to God, then we're goi2">ing to have reali2">ize, that any progress towards that goal wi2">ill have to entai2">il learni2">ing that YOU ARE NOT A BODY. i2">In fact, you're not even remotely a body, nor do you really have one. You are i2">immortal spi2">iri2">it. "You are i2">immortal and you cannot di2">ie, but you can confuse yourself wi2">ith thi2">ings that do."

By confusi2">ing your i2">IDENTi2">ITY wi2">ith the human body and thi2">inki2">ing of i2">it as "my self", you are confused, and confusi2">ion i2">is fear. And thi2">is i2">is also level confusi2">ion. And i2">it i2">is also si2">ickness. And i2">it i2">is a way to defend agai2">inst the truth. And i2">it's a choi2">ice to suffer. i2">It's a form of self attack, and an attack on others, to regard yourself as physi2">ical.

To emphasi2">ize the quali2">iti2">ies, characteri2">isti2">ics, gender, sexual persuasi2">ion, desi2">irable or undesi2">irable features, shape, si2">ize, color, ethi2">ic ori2">igi2">in, hai2">irstyle, musculature, ski2">inni2">iness, sexi2">iness, attracti2">iveness, ugli2">iness, or any other attri2">ibute of the body as bei2">ing somethi2">ing that determi2">ines or says ANYTHi2">ING about YOU, i2">is delusi2">ional. i2">It i2">is confusi2">ion about who and what you are.

But we are addi2">icted to usi2">ing the body li2">ike some ki2">ind of i2">idol worshi2">ip fi2">igure that we hold i2">in very hi2">igh regard (or low) as a statement of "what i2">I am li2">ike". Yet nothi2">ing about the body appli2">ies to you at all. We can get lost i2">in how proud we are to be a woman or a man or gay or strai2">ight or whi2">ite or black or pretty much anythi2">ing else. NONE of i2">it i2">is true of you! You are made of li2">ight. You are a spi2">iri2">it bei2">ing. You have i2">immortali2">ity. Your body i2">is an enti2">ire LAYER of i2">illusi2">ions coveri2">ing over your real self. i2">It's just a pi2">icture that you show to the world to pretend you are not yourself.

"The i2">IDEA of separati2">ion PRODUCED the body, and remai2">ins connected TO i2">it"

"The body i2">is the i2">idea of si2">in made flesh and projected outwards."

"The body i2">is the i2">idea of who you are not."

"For what you are cannot be seen nor pi2">ictured."

"Can you who see yourselves Wi2">ITHi2">IN a body, know yourself AS AN i2">IDEA?"

"Freedom must be i2">impossi2">ible as long as you percei2">ive a body as yourself."

"The ego regards the body as i2">its home, and DOES try to sati2">isfy i2">itself through the body."

"The body i2">is the symbol of the ego, as the ego i2">is the symbol of separati2">ion. And both are nothi2">ing more than attempts to Li2">IMi2">IT communi2">icati2">ion, and thereby TO MAKE i2">IT i2">IMPOSSi2">IBLE."

"Only by assi2">igni2">ing to the mi2">ind the properti2">ies OF THE BODY, does separati2">ion SEEM to be possi2">ible."

"A PERSON concei2">ives of hi2">imself as separate, largely because he percei2">ives OF hi2">imself as bounded by a body."

"The body i2">IS separate, and therefore CANNOT be part of you."

"The world of bodi2">ies i2">is the world of si2">in, for only i2">if there were a body i2">is si2">in possi2">ible."

"Only the body makes the world seem real."

"The man was an i2">illusi2">ion, for he seemed to be a separate bei2">ing, walki2">ing by hi2">imself, wi2">ithi2">in a body that appeared to hold hi2">is self from Self, as all i2">illusi2">ions do."

Thi2">is means that all the ways that we beli2">ieve and act as i2">if we ARE the body, as though i2">its prowess rubs off on us, as though we get credi2">it or di2">iscredi2">it for how the body looks, as though anythi2">ing about i2">it AT ALL says anythi2">ing about you AT ALL, has to be undone. We have to be wi2">illi2">ing to let go of all the ways we have confused ourselves Wi2">ITH i2">it, so that we can come to the recogni2">iti2">ion that we are Di2">ISTi2">INCT from i2">it, and that i2">it i2">is NOT ourselves.

i2">In a sense, we have to "separate out" what i2">is REALLY YOU, your real self, and what i2">is an i2">illusi2">ion. "The body i2">is a dream", so i2">it i2">is an i2">illusi2">ion. i2">IF you are confusi2">ing i2">it wi2">ith your sense of self, you are losi2">ing si2">ight of your real self. Not bei2">ing clear about WHAT you are - i2">immortal spi2">iri2">it - you are unclear about what i2">is real and what i2">is an i2">illusi2">ion. You cannot BE a body i2">if you are to be real.

Thi2">is means that your ENTi2">IRE sense of i2">identi2">ity - self - what you are - has to SHi2">IFT away from the body, TOWARDS SPi2">IRi2">IT. To become spi2">iri2">it-i2">identi2">ifi2">ied. That i2">is the goal. To let go of the body enti2">irely. To be completely clear i2">it i2">is not you, and you do not need i2">it, because i2">it i2">is not part of who and what you are. God di2">id not create i2">it, so i2">it i2">is not really part of your real self., and does not exi2">ist i2">in reali2">ity or heaven.

The proper use of deni2">ial i2">is to not BELi2">IEVE that the body i2">is real, and to therefore deny i2">its exi2">istence, recogni2">izi2">ing i2">it i2">is not yourself or anythi2">ing real. The i2">improper use of deni2">ial i2">is to BELi2">IEVE the body i2">is real, whi2">ile tryi2">ing to deny i2">it exi2">ists, whi2">ich i2">is actually a double deni2">ial. To beli2">ieve bodi2">ies exi2">ists i2">is a deni2">ial of your spi2">iri2">it. To then sacri2">ifi2">ice the body i2">is deni2">ial on top of deni2">ial. We have to carefully di2">ismantle our beli2">ief that the body i2">is real i2">in the fi2">irst place, shi2">ift our sense of i2">identi2">ity back to i2">its natural God-gi2">iven state, and then accept the atonement truth that we are sti2">ill THE SPi2">IRi2">IT that God created, NOT a body whatsoever.

Upon reali2">izi2">ing you are spi2">iri2">it, clearly, and wi2">ith no delusi2">ion about bei2">ing a body, you may for a whi2">ile be usi2">ing the body. But now the body i2">is merely a TOOL. Si2">imi2">ilar to how a carpenter would use a hammer to construct a chai2">ir, he would not for a moment become delusi2">ional and beli2">ieve that he i2">IS the hammer. i2">It's just a devi2">ice, an i2">instrument, a pi2">iece of machi2">inery. You can operate i2">it and make i2">it do stuff but at no ti2">ime do you beli2">ieve i2">it i2">is YOUR SELF.

And havi2">ing recogni2">ized that your enti2">ire fulfi2">illment comes from rememberi2">ing who you ARE, you would no longer seek to use the body to GET anythi2">ing, to "pleasure you", or to enter i2">into i2">illusi2">ions of joi2">ini2">ing at a physi2">ical level - knowi2">ing i2">it i2">is not possi2">ible, or necessary. "Mi2">inds need not bodi2">ies to communi2">icate."

Full-on spi2">iri2">it-i2">identi2">ifi2">icati2">ion, chri2">ist-i2">identi2">ifi2">icati2">ion, son of God i2">identi2">ifi2">icati2">ion, sets you free from death, from the world, and from all bodi2">ies forever. You are not a body, you are free, because you are sti2">ill as God created you. And those who know themselves are not confused about whether they are a walki2">ing flesh pri2">ison or not. Shi2">ifti2">ing to spi2">iri2">it means shi2">ifti2">ing away from EVERY sense of i2">identi2">ity associ2">iated wi2">ith the body form. Race, gender, sex, age, geneti2">ics, ancestry, shape, color, features, all of i2">it.

You are only what God created. You are a shi2">ini2">ing star i2">in heaven's womb. How could you be anythi2">ing but God's di2">ivi2">ine creati2">ion.

i2">I had no i2">idea, that i2">I had been spendi2">ing vast majori2">ity of my li2">ife attempti2">ing to use the ego's persona i2">in order to 'make li2">ife better'.

All the ti2">imes that i2">I people-pleased to try to make bad people go away.

All the ti2">imes that i2">I tri2">ied to fi2">ix everythi2">ing bad that ever seemed to be happeni2">ing.

All the ti2">imes that i2">I tri2">ied to appear to be i2">innocent and yet was acti2">ing li2">ike a vi2">icti2">im.

All the ti2">imes that i2">I tri2">ied to look pleasi2">ing to others so that they would maybe not hurt me.

All the ti2">imes that i2">I thought i2">I had to gi2">ive others what they wanted, and that i2">I was not i2">inherently wanted i2">in a lovi2">ing way - only i2">in terms of what others wanted to take from me.

There was even a ti2">ime i2">in my li2">ife that was especi2">ially low where i2">I felt so bad about myself, such low self 'esteem', i2">ie shame and unworthi2">iness, that i2">I beli2">ieved i2">I di2">id not deserve any love, and that the only people who would 'want me' were those who wanted to use me or take from me or have me be a slave to. i2">It was tremendously di2">isempoweri2">ing.

Ulti2">imately thi2">is was all because i2">I had such a strong beli2">ief that my personas (personi2">ii2">i?), were actually capable of i2">IMPROVi2">ING my li2">ife, maki2">ing thi2">ings more palatable, protecti2">ing me or defendi2">ing me from what i2">I di2">id not want. i2">I wanted to si2">imply shut out all the bad i2">icky stuff and focus solely on the good stuff.

And i2">I remember actually beli2">ievi2">ing that i2">I was becomi2">ing 'very spi2">iri2">itual' by rejecti2">ing even the everyday egos of other people, whi2">ich i2">I relegated and judged and condemned for 'bei2">ing ego' or 'bei2">ing selfi2">ish' etc. Thi2">is sort of twi2">isted double-edged i2">idea of spi2">iri2">ituali2">ity arose out of thi2">is i2">in my late teens where i2">I was si2">imultaneously terri2">ifi2">ied and hounded by scary stuff i2">in my mi2">ind, whi2">ile thi2">inki2">ing that i2">I was also havi2">ing deep spi2">iri2">itual i2">insi2">ights. And maybe i2">I was i2">in a way, but i2">it was strongly duali2">isti2">ic, and my mi2">ind was very spli2">it. There was a 'ri2">ift' i2">in my li2">ife, a strong sense of separati2">ion, and that persona of exalted, lofty speci2">ialness, really holi2">ier-than thou, si2">imultaneously felt li2">ike i2">I was approachi2">ing death.

i2">I used the persona to get ri2">id of and attack everythi2">ing that i2">I was agai2">inst, beli2">ievi2">ing that what i2">I 'kept' was all good and acceptable and allowed. BUT, the more that i2">I got ri2">id of... and beli2">ieve me i2">I i2">included a LOT of stuff i2">in the li2">ist of what i2">I rejected, way above and beyond normal classi2">ifi2">icati2">ions (i2">ie most of the world), the more what i2">I had LEFT OVER got smaller and smaller. The more i2">I found myself i2">in a hole of i2">isolati2">ion and loneli2">iness. And the more i2">I became depressed. i2">I felt li2">ike thi2">is i2">impendi2">ing sense of everythi2">ing comi2">ing to an 'end'. My whole reali2">ity just felt li2">ike i2">it was saturated wi2">ith a sense of i2">impendi2">ing doom, wi2">ith no way out. Because i2">I was hi2">idi2">ing i2">in the persona and not bei2">ing authenti2">ic at all, even though i2">I felt justi2">ifi2">ied by my pai2">in.

i2">I was repressi2">ing so much and rejecti2">ing so much, perhaps i2">in attempt to heal myself of strong wounds, whi2">ich i2">I had projected onto everyone else, that i2">I was perhaps tryi2">ing to fi2">ind a way to get away from i2">it all and at least 'fake' that i2">I was heali2">ing, as a starti2">ing poi2">int. Very much fortunately, thi2">ings gradually started to turn around at that poi2">int, massi2">ively fuelled by my meeti2">ing my beloved wi2">ife who came i2">into the darkness li2">ike an angel of li2">ight. Then the heali2">ing commenced.

Now, looki2">ing back, i2">I can see how my enti2">ire ti2">ime was spent choosi2">ing the persona, putti2">ing on a fake i2">image, tryi2">ing to gi2">ive people what they wanted, tryi2">ing to please, tryi2">ing not to upset anyone, tryi2">ing to mai2">intai2">in status quo or 'peace' by never asserti2">ing myself or standi2">ing out, etc. i2">It was a rough lesson! And all of that resi2">isti2">ing, all of that... rejecti2">ing of li2">ife... merely di2">imi2">ini2">ished my own. Now i2">I am learni2">ing that usi2">ing the persona at all i2">is an attack on myself. i2">It i2">is a way to buy i2">into the beli2">ief that i2">I need to cover myself up because there's somethi2">ing wrong wi2">ith me. As self-love i2">increases - genui2">ine honest God-shared love - so too does the need for these masks di2">imi2">ini2">ish.

i2">I am seei2">ing clearer and clearer that all of the confi2">idence, all of the fearlessness, all of the certai2">inty, all of the clari2">ity and strength, that i2">I thought i2">I was goi2">ing to fi2">ind by usi2">ing rejecti2">ion, separati2">ion, persona deni2">ial, etc... are actually already i2">IN ME... i2">it was bei2">ing deni2">ied BY the use of the persona. i2">I just needed to learn WHERE the truth i2">is, what WHAT the truth i2">is. i2">I was looki2">ing i2">in the wrong place for my whole li2">ife - outsi2">ide of me, and was rejecti2">ing myself the enti2">ire ti2">ime.

Now i2">I see that i2">if you stand wi2">ith yourself i2">in your truth and don't reject yourself, you don't even NEED any of the persona masks, because you already HAVE what God has gi2">iven you, you already ARE powerful and safe and strong. You don't need to hi2">ide from people, because you are uncondi2">iti2">ionally lovi2">ing yourself. You're sayi2">ing, i2">I'm goi2">ing to ALWAYS be real, true and honest, i2">in all si2">ituati2">ions and wi2">ith all people. i2">I am ALWAYS goi2">ing to come from uncondi2">iti2">ional love no matter what. And i2">in that, you not only drop all of the efforts to 'get ri2">id of bad stuff', you also drop all of the efforts to 'choose only the good stuff'. And along wi2">ith that goes all sense of dependi2">ing on, or cari2">ing about, what anyone else thi2">inks of you or what you do. i2">It i2">is a freedom. i2">In a sense, an i2">independence - bei2">ing set free from the energy-sucki2">ing vampi2">ire that the ego i2">is and bei2">ing AVAi2">ILABLE now to God, to allow Hi2">im to li2">ive through you.