When shit happens and stuff goes badly wrong and life sucks bigtime, you have one of two conclusions:
a) Shit happened and where was God? God is either cruel or he doesn't exist, because the shit is "real". Or...
b) Shit only appeared to happen and is not REAL, precisely BECAUSE God is loving and real, and God wants to heal it.
Many people conclude the first option because they cannot conceive of this world being unreal, or of very real-seeming sicknesses, pains and struggles being unreal. They seem like intense, real experiences that you can do nothing about. And that cements the idea that God is dead.
So then you lose hope, because you think God does not give a rats arse about you, or that God is cruel, or that there is no reason to have FAITH.
But what you haven't considered is that, EITHER this shit is true and God is dead, OR God is real and this shit is dead.
The shit is dead.
God is real.
And that requires you to completely question your entire foundation of reality, your belief in everything that your eyes see and your body experiences, and a faith which completely bypasses ALL appearances and bodily sensation, to BELIEVE IN GOD stronger than you believe in this shithole.
Find strength in God regardless of and in spite of what appears to be an absolutely fucked up life. God did not will this. God is love and God is real and God wants you to be fully convinced of His position, and to not doubt His reality, but instead to doubt THIS reality... this world, which is nothing more than a shit on top of another shit. It is not real. And God has miracles for you if you will accept this.
P.S. Jesus' response to my writing this is.... "Its a lesson". The only reason crap is happening is so that you will stop believing that crap really happens, so that you can enjoy the shitless life that God intends.