I had no idea, that I had been spending vast majority of my life attempting to use the ego's persona in order to 'make life better'.
All the times that I people-pleased to try to make bad people go away.
All the...
The idea of your persona is that it rejects everything you don't like, keeping only the good stuff.
If you get really good at using your persona, you will get really brutal at cutting out things which seem even remotely bad.
Eventually...
The ego doesn't have any real power of its own. Its only strategy is to try to get you to willingly give your power to it.
To do this, it has to present to you some kind of temptation or lie,...
I was being controlling. I did not want things to be the way they are. i wanted to stop them being the way they are and be different. I could not accept that this was okay or that it should...
The ego has two parts to it, because the ego is a belief-system based on duality. Duality is based on separation. The ego mind is a 'split mind'. The ego mind is at war with itself and is in conflict....
The really big problem we have isn't so much to do with the characteristics of the ego. The big problem that we've confused who we are with it. Our sense of 'self' has become caught up in it. Our identity...
When you try to go into the light, while still holding onto ego in any way, you are trying to bring darkness into the light.
What that means is, you believe the darkness can 'stay dark' while you enter the light....
In the ego's world, having expectations seems to produce stress and upset. We seem to be tasked with dropping all expectations, so that whatever happens, we will be okay with it. It is good not to have attachments to outcomes,...
For the ego, an answer is not an answer that solves a problem. Instead its answers are merely manipulations which describe the problem and compound it.
Sometimes the ego makes it appear that a problem is being 'solved' by, apparently practically,...
Know this. It is not possible to objectively and neutrally try to determine what the truth is, using the ego, without avoiding the truth.
There is no 'innocently seeking for the answer'. There is no mode that you can be in...
The ego makes a problem seem real, gets intense about it, magnifies it, and then tries to do something about it.
The ego can put on a mask of being a 'problem solver' or 'fixer' or 'doer' or 'seeker', claiming that...
When you defend your ego self, you become righteous. And as you do this, you will become angry.
The Course says "anger is never justified", but when we are defending an idea of "why I am right", I AM attempting to...
One trap I often fall into is this... it's particularly sneaky...
Someone else is 'actually wrong' about something, I am 'actually right' about something.
i.e. based on the situation, on the ego level, somebody actually has made some mistake that's obvious, I...
The ego can be pretty sneaky. Usually it is merely suspicious. And usually it will tell you just seemingly 'small lies', just enough to get you a bit upset. This way the ego gets to hide while you're kept under...
They say the ego is the first to speak, and usually people interpret this to mean that it speaks in an actual voice or thought, before Holy Spirit gets a word in. But clearly this isn't true because it's entirely...
The ego is your attempt not to accept being with God. It is an attempt to deny God's presence. But the ego can't make God go away, or get rid of Him.
So its only real tool is to pretend. Denial...
The ego's prayer: Please help God because this situation is totally what I do not want. I am not grateful for it at all, it totally sucks, save me, for me. Pleeeeeease.
Holy prayer: Thank you God for your love and...
In the Authority problem, there is a great reversal of roles, and a confusing of levels.
Jesus refers to this as being the source of sickness ("all sickness comes from confusing the levels").
He also says that miracles realign the 'levels of...
The ego is a devious, cunning, manipulative, deceptive monster, acting in deep unconsciousness, unaware of truth, unaware of the present, threatened by everything, threatening to everything, vicious and vile, mean and hateful, deeply suspicious, riddled with terror, certain of the...
Sometimes the ego breaking down can seem like a messy shitty mess. With extra shit in it.
When the ego's thought system is confronted with reality, i.e. the Holy Spirit's thought system, it has absolutely no way to understand it.
This also...